I don’t know how to describe my eating disorder which isn’t an eating disorder.
I want to get smaller, thinner, lighter and I will. I workout and I do eat but I’ve been trying to eat healthier and not as much junk food…but if you saw my last food entry, today was a bad day. This may sound like a healthy “diet” but I am obsessed with being thin. I don’t want to be thin just to be thin. I want to because I will have more confident and I am not happy with what I see in the mirror.
I’m not one of those girls who is trying to have an eating disorder because:
a. it’s a very serious thing to have b. it’s nothing to play around with
But everyday, I see the lean, skinny, thin beautiful girls at my school and I envy them. Of course, you are beautiful no matter what size but for me personally, I will feel more beautiful being smaller. There’s nothing wrong with that.
I do not glamorize eating disorders nor would I suggest anyone to have one to lose weight. I am doing this for myself and no one else.